SVPREME INK.

I feel like mentally im running in circles. Earlier today i was reading the alchemist. And tapped into the soul of the workd so easily, it was beautiful. I found appreciation everywhere. Everything was so beautiful. The stairs, the structure of buildings, the differences in trees. And now i feel like im just floating here. Maybe this is a part of it all. I mean, everything happens for a reason. Everything has it’s place. Is this mine at the moment? I forgot what alot of things feel like. But ive also remembered alot of beautiful things these last few days. I can’t tell if im walking a fine line between good and bad, or if i’ve already sunk in the bad side and im just numb to it right now. Im also somewhat drunk. i guess im meant to be having this conversation with myself. I should do this more often. i need to find freedom. i feel like thats what im looking for.

shit sux. Its like, when things are good im just preparing myself for shit to get bad. And when shit is bad, i be praying for better, but just expecting the bullshit. im at a point of just existing. Which is good. Maybe ill find peace in this still moment. Maybe ill find myself. I guess its natural for everyone to get lost sometimes. And feel alone. I hope i learn to love more. And find happiness. But then again happiness is just a state of mind right?

I be losing hope in everything. I need to talk to god more..

nothing in this world is worth losing him.